I never peeled an orange well until this year.
I didn't learn how to legitimately whistle until I was well in my twenties.
And I think I was about eleven when I realized that after people sneezed they were saying, "Bless You," and not, "Bleshschue" (a word from what I assumed was some foreign language.)
Sometimes, yes sometimes, I am a slow learner.
Something else that has taken me my entire life to fully understand is relationships. Not with men (perhaps what you are thinking...which is a whole 'nother post!) but with women.
I've just never been a fan really of, well, us.
I mean throughout my childhood and teenage years I had a few good girl friends, but I always felt more comfortable around men. I think my reasons were all very reasonable, and to this day, think I had a very logical point.
1. Men don't gossip.
2. Men don't back bite.
3. Men aren't (generally) emotional.
4. Men are pretty consistent.
5. Men don't always need to talk.
(And yes, referring to my future post about understanding men, these aforementioned things are sometimes the things that drive me crazy about my man...)
Anyhow, but then I got married. To a man. And all of a sudden it seemed rather inappropriate to hang with my buddies. I know some of you women can maintain healthy relationships with your man friends that have very staunch boundaries...however, we just decided to not even let a foot hold in our relationship - blah blah blah, moving on...
And then it was my husband and me. All the time. Every day. Awesome.
No, really, I like him so it's good. We maintained this little lifestyle of ours for awhile and then we decided to add a few more faces to our picture and then it was my husband and my four kids who don't speak intelligible English half the time and me. All the time. Every day. Awe-freaking-some.
And then I realized it, slow learner that I am, that I perhaps need to befriend other people who don't have my last name. Shocking, I know.
I even recently read an article about how women benefit from spending time with other women:
"The speaker (head of psychiatry at Stanford) said, among other things, that one of the best things that a man could do for his health is to be married to a woman whereas for a woman, one of the best things she could do for her health was to nurture her relationships with her girlfriends."
Nurturing relationships with girlfriends. Hmmm.... I quite honestly don't know what that actually looks like, I mean in an effective way.
Recently my dear friend, with four children of her own, came to visit. I love her. But I'm not sure how many sentences we were able to actually complete or complete thoughts we were able to communicate during our three hour visit. Were we nurturing our friendship? Probably to some degree...but really, quite honestly, it left me hungry for more.
And Facebook, well, I tend to have more meaningful conversations over Facebook than I do in person or on the phone - because you can't hear the screaming in person or be interrupted 21343923 times because someone threw something at someone else because someone did something to someone - but that still doesn't fill the void I have often times for genuine relationship.
So, what's the solution?
Invest in my relationships, make new relationships with girlfriends. Perhaps without children so real words can be spoken and heard. But it must happen.
How are you feeling? Do you feel like you need to connect with other women? Are you hungry for relationship with other women to tell you that "no, you aren't crazy" and "yes, that's perfectly normal?" Do you wish you had friends that could tell you, "Yes, my kid TOTALLY did that" and "Yes, you really should call the doctor." Perhaps you are ready for friends who can go deeper and say, "I will walk with you friend during this trial," or those ladies who can pray with you for clarity when things are so hazy and confusing.
If so, wanna have coffee?